Raw Responses Tell What's True In Me About Identity

Re: Veronika and Syreeta | Ancestral Will

Self-Portraits in Kindergarten

Hello and Welcome to the “Raw Responses Tell What's True In Me” Newsletter About Identity where I’m responding to Veronika Bond’s Newsletter “Ancestral Will”,
Dr Syreeta Charles-Cole’s comment and then to Veronika’s response.
It’s gonna be a deep dive into ancestral identity, so grab a drink and fasten your seat-belt. You’ll probably need something to hold on to after this episode.

The Sapwood of Synchronosophy 15/18

"From a psychological perspective, it's crucial to consider how terms like "disabled identity" might be perceived. Labelling an identity as "disabled" could imply a static […]”

Here is a link to Syreeta’s full comment and my response:

I think that from a "psychological perspective" it's hard to maintain any perception, for instance "a static" because of the seed in the psyche that knows that a disability to form for instance an identity is a contraction in one area that propels for an expansion in another area, and I think that if we would allow ourselves to feel into "how terms are perceived" then the "static" feeling could teach us that it is a temporary stage of a contraction that we need to expand in the direction of the purpose in life, but when we would bypass that "static" feeling I see how this can hinder the flow of healing.

"Language creates the reality it describes."
LOL... I see how I've created a reality from your words 😉

Syreeta’s Response:

Thank you for sharing your perspective! It's an important point that the societal view of disability often treats it as a fixed rather than static condition, which can significantly impact social mobility and opportunities.

Veronika’s Response:

Thank you Pascall. I must admit, when I wrote 'disabled identity' I wasn't really thinking that much about the word. In that moment it was just meant in the sense of 'mechanically disabled' which can also be 'enabled' again. When Syreeta pointed out that this might be perceived as a 'fixed condition' because of the way the word 'disability' is currently used in reference to physical or mental 'disabilities' (= incurable) I totally accept and respect that perspective. And because of this association I changed it in the chapter to 'immobilised identity'. The aspect you are sharing here about 'psychological perspective' is another fascinating one too! Of course, feelings by their nature are never static but always fluctuating. Having said that, we can also carry 'frozen' emotions/feelings/states (as I called them in various previous chapters), I think frozen is a good word because it implies 'temporarily static' which included the option of defrosting, thawing, becoming fluid again. And I love your observation about the danger of bypassing the static, disabled, frozen, immobilised feeling. Health = free flow. 🩵🙏

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I Got Carried Away

Yeah, I ‘just’ wanted to respond again, but got so inspired that after two days keeping up with the flow of information, I felt embarrassed to post it all on Veronika’s comment-section, so that’s how the idea was born to turn my response in a “raw response” newsletter.

So Here We Go

First paragraph is to Syreeta, the next to Veronika.

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Thanks Syreeta, 💜
Courage to admit my disability to go along with a demand in the 'clan-culture' to form an identity became part of growing up for me, in other words, I was not able to 'become someone'; that's how I found out that I already was 'some-body', and almost no bodies around had the courage (as you say "mobility") to see this, because most bodies around were terrified to leave the 'clan-culture', and were therefore totally invested in their 'one-personality' identity.
I create an "opportunity" for me to relate (like I do in this response to you) because I had to admit that a disability in someone to relate to me, deserves the same courage from me to respect the flow of energy away from me.

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Thanks Veronika 💜
For me, the process of seeing the investment in a 'disabled identity' of people in my clan, the theme in your newsletter i.e. ancestry, made me aware that this investment is indeed the flow in a frozen state, and therefore a stage in my development to inquire a fear-based decision to stay in what I call the 'clan-culture' with its demand to form a 'one-personality', i.e. a total and permanent identification with for instance a job-title, a role to play to feel accepted in a society or in a group, like a family or community, which demands an effort to erase the undivided duality reality of me, i.e. individuality, and stay stuck in this fear (although reasonable in the setting and circumstances at the moment in time for the clan) but I couldn't stay there, I was not able....

So... I Told Them... I Can't

Veda Austin, the founder of frozen water 'hydroglyphs’ and crystallography proofs that in this frozen stage, water can form an image of a request made by a practitioner. It can even magically answer questions that reconnect seeming divisions, so that we see how opposites need each other and this inspires to see a new reality. That's why I said earlier "the flow in a frozen state".

The spirit of water has a lot to teach, and it helped me.
It confirmed what I found in 'sync with Sophie' 😉 that my disability is a strength, a courage to walk away from an identification investment, if you will, including the projections and labels of the clan trying to identify me, so that I can invest energy in what does work for me.

So yeah, Veronika, it might not come as a surprise when I say that I can't agree with "totally accept [...] that perspective" of the current use of the word disability, or the avoidance of it, but I do respect your decision, although I am also aware of my decision not to follow the current in my community in which I see the same dynamics as in what we call 'the world', where I notice a tendency to avoid nuances in words and realities to accommodate the feelings of a group of people who are determined to stick to their 'one-personality-disorder', and thereby demand individuals to adapt to their needs which are based upon the bypassing of feelings, fears, emotions and pain.

I feel that this hinders perspective (looking at, observe and see through), healing and the rise of consciousness. I also think that we can't prevent perceptions, and one step further... I don't want to. I've seen the results.

It Sucks
Literally

I've been locked in an unaddressed infantile pattern trying to suck people in my emotions because I was emotionally neglected, unseen, unacceptable, unknown until I saw myself, and learned to just have my emotions on my own, likewise... I've learned not to be too harsh when someone tries to suck me in, nevertheless, I'm not allowing the suck of energy, if I see an abuse of energy behind it like sapping the woods 😝 to prevent a tantrum.

'Though Love' and 'Killing in Kindness'
comes to mind....

In my response to Syreeta about the "psychological perspective" I share what I detected and inspected in her comment, and by tuning into the psyche, I allowed a reality to be born in me, which might or might not give you both a perspective, and which might invite people to 'come out of the woods', so to speak, to just like me, revert an inversion of power and flow of energy in the informed bio-energy sphere as well, because we can support each other also in turning the current direction of the 'clan-culture' that in my view hinders a healing flow, upside down, which has a lot to do with what or whom we identify with, also in relation to the dynamics in the clan of origin, our ancestry.

I see a free flow of personae, archetypes, characters, spirits, love, intelligence, courage, creativity in me, to play with and that can also swipe the ones that don't belong in me.
The aforementioned parts of free flow are also in relation to the people I meet, where 'what or whom comes out of me or comes to the front' is connected to whatever or whomever I meet, which is the same as a dance isn't it? Two or more to tango💃 tantra-style (reaching and weaving beyond the known).

Oh, I see a flame of healing!

Image people, who still think their disability is a liability,
turn around and come out with it:
"I can't... do xyz, be xyz, act like xyz, feel how I ought to feel, and so on, and instead inquire what it is in this spirited body that wants to relate, be known, felt, seen, expressed, etc..

Or as it is stated in the following quote:

"as Kimberly Warner discovered during her bewildering, often scary, and agonising search for identity [...] My literal sense of self dissipated as my relationship to my body, family, career and community changed within a few short months.”

The literal sense of self is in my view, feeling the power and flow of infinite consciousness (which heals), and in search for one defined identity it's indeed scary, bewildering and agonizing to discover it's impossible to catch this sense of self and define it. Besides that, it is in my view hilarious to see the etymology of the word 'self'... 'the same' and 'identical' 🤣

For me, it was and still is important to admit that I can't bear the torch of my ancestry, but I couldn't blow the torch out either, so I bore it, added some oil to it once in a while, or subdued it to a lower setting, admitting that it came with the extremes of bliss and suffering, and an insight that I have to find my own torch although the flame is the same, find the parts that don't belong in me by feeling what I'd taken on board to make it through, basically to survive, and swipe the parts in me that in effect hinder healing and the rise of consciousness.

This is in my view also illustrated by your story about the pain in your shoulder, literally shouldering the soldiering of your uncle, and when I looked at the photos I saw proof of my interpretation not only in the positioning of the members but also seeing their posture and gaze.

It's possible to boil frozen water, but it is quite a fast way to go from one stage to the next, and the healing pain is often focused too, expressed in a small area of the body.

Pain runs through families and I see it as a sacred job to feel this pain and allow healing, which inevitably raises consciousness, but it's not easy at first. It's also proven through the aforementioned 'hydroglyphs' method that healing passes on 'automagically' if we allow it, no matter how many people around divert from this process and pretend it's not happening or possible.

As soon as the bodies that take on this job become more aware, they'll see that the people they meet replace the people of the original clan, which includes meeting ourselves, so that the remnants of the parts still active in me but don't belong in me get reflected, as well as the dormant parts that need energizing, until we become aware and able to relate, bond and/or leave.

So, I Relate and Respond

Looking back I see my progress. Meeting new people I see where I come from and the progress on my healing journey; seeing the purpose, what I need to learn and what I want to create. It's on one hand a lonely journey, on the other hand a joined journey with all people around me, and because of the amount of support I got, I can't take all the credits for the results, not to mention the flow of inspiration of spirits in me 🎇

Nevertheless, I didn't avoid the bumps on the road. The intensity of encounters I needed to wake up to my soul's pathway gradually became less heated, volatile and violent, which is proof of recognition of patterns and pitfalls, becoming better at surfing the waves, so to speak.

I see the bloodline as a silver thread through life connecting the ethereal (eternal spiritual) with incarnation, an upload of energy-in-formation in the seed and a download of energy-in-formation in the egg resulting in an upgrade carried by offspring.

A couple of days ago, to let you know I flow in sychronosophy 😉
I read Bertus Newsletter on his “Guardening the Spheres” Substack.

Firefly Exchange

I wrote to Bertus:
A child is the upgrade of you

I get it, not every body is OK with an upgrade or update, which explains the inversion of energy (power) a reason for a parent to bring a child up instead of observing what the child brings and brings up, even if it upsets... sets a parent up for healing and the rise of consciousness.

I feel the ‘enfant terrible’ is missing in the “nocturine”. Maybe it still hides in the night, and it doesn't dare to turn the silver lining in a line in the sand because it doesn't realize it's only sand, it can move, and doesn't need to be straight 🥳 and that's why I say that I want to find middle-ground in my spirited body-world.

It could well be that the "disabled or immobile" identity of mum/dad, is like a hydroglyph, indeed a state that wants to show us an image of how it wants to become a stage in development, but is hindered by the fear of flow. This fear is real. It wants to be felt. And if we feel it, it (spirit) heals. We might get to know what has been disabled or immobilized in our bloodline, so that we, as offspring, can let it flow and maybe it lets us go, like parents can let children go and children can let parents go, to, as you say "free flow".

To give an example of reverting the power and flow of energy in our informed bio-energy sphere... when parents see the effort to 'bring up' children as an attempt to 'bring them down' to their level; interpret 'disorders' in children as an attempt of them to bridge the relationship with the parent with the purpose of their life, and see children’s effort more as an invitation to the parent to leave their disabled or immobilized identity behind, i.e. leave their 'one-personality disorder' behind.

What a Relief 👍 Breathe In and Let Go

Well, Veronika... what a long response... as you can see I love to dive in and share; I also see it as a way to give back to you because I am truly grateful to be able to read what you share on Substack. Thank you, thank you, thank you for inspiring me! Much love 🌹

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PS

Just to let readers know
I'm not doing this as a hobby or as a business.
I'm inviting you to 'come out of the woods' and play with and in our ‘me’
in Okeko Learn & Share Gatherings, like I play with and in the songs of life
and dance to its tunes, I'm getting ready to play with 'the you and I' in me
to reach and weave beyond the known,
and see what 'Sophie' has to say when we sync 🐣
or play for "psychonauts" (credit

visakan veerasamy

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in the landscape and architecture of Self.
So... let me know in the comments whether you're interested to play together
(max. 9 participants) dance to the tunes (for 2 hours)
relate, and then leave me to it (spirit)
to integrate the healing that happened and let consciousness rise up.

Flow of Offspring In and Out of an Ancestral Basement Up and Down the Pyramid ;)