That’s IT... About Me and Okeko
Part 1, A Weird INTRODUCTION
Let’s start with telling you that this is the draft-version of ‘That’s IT, About Me and Okeko’. Three months ago, I began with a blanc screen on my laptop, and never anticipated that I was going to write 80+ pages. It probably needs much more edits, but, I also want to publish, and on the other hand I am hesitant to click this green button to send it off.
Oh, dear, maybe I need a break from it, maybe I want to get rid of it. Maybe, I’m just fed up with all this writing. It surely has me in a grip. Even when I go for a walk, I’m writing in my head, it’s weird, the air seems full of many paragraphs to add. Weirdly so, I also want to play. I feel drawn to the ‘notes’ on Substack. It sounds like fun to recommend other writers and respond to their posts. Many other Substack newsletters helped me a lot when I was typing this piece.
Me?
I’m not a writer, and not trying to become one… which has a deeper meaning than you’ll probably guess just now. Anyway, beforehand, I apologize for probably the many mistakes I’ve made. You could say, I’m a foreigner here ;) translating my Dutch mother tongue, trying to articulate in English what’s on my mind, wishing you’ll find a space in your heart to let me in, and hear me out.
About Me and Okeko Is also about ‘the ME’ in You Sounds weird hey…. We’ll get to that bit very soon That’s It... I’m just Gonna do It Push Some Buttons
What you’ll find here is me and my weird ways to find what’s true in me. I write about the games we play, the roles we take on in the world to ‘become some-one’ and how ‘Stockholm-syndrome’ drives us in a ‘one-personality-disorder’ which hinders the flow of energy in our ‘inner pyramid’, shown and explained in my ‘classroom container’ videos, and no, I’m not a film-maker either as you will see if you watch these ;) neither have an ambition to become one (pun intended).
I Became Aware of a Weird Psychological Dynamic and wanna talk about it with YOU after I’m done with writing and you with reading
In my view, when we go along with ‘the world’, longing to belong ‘there’, we lose IT (Spirit) but, we can gain an incredible and valuable insight from this loss. An inversion of energy in our ‘Cosmic Egg’ confuses us, but this confusion brings us closer to what’s true. At least, that’s how it worked for me. So… if you’re curious and willing to read on, my newsletter might give you some ‘light-bulb’ moments. I love to share, and pass on the healing I received.
First, Let Me Play a Bit with a Few Words in This Weird Introduction I used to cringe when someone said ‘that’s weird’ but Then I Learnt to Love the word ‘Weird’
Healing processes are often labelled weird, and the players in this field are often labelled ‘weirdos’, healers, or teachers, and worst ‘masters’ and ‘gurus’.
If you let me choose the one I prefer, it’s gonna be the weirdo ☺ it’s much more fun, besides that, the weird-label is a compliment, as it is proof of motion, so let’s say a flow of energy, a remedy for confusion, an optimal movement in the ‘inner pyramid’ to get IT again, which might disturb less agile folks around.
OK, let’s have a look at the roots of ‘weird’
and maybe I revert your flow of energy into it too, he-he.
‘Weird’ comes from the root ‘wer’ (to turn, bend), and it is part of the words invert, convert, converse, controversy, adverse, divert, introvert, revert, verge, version, vortex, vertebra, versus, worry, worth, wrestle, wrong, and many more.
Logically, when we turn or bend, we intend to ‘turn towards’ change, transformation, ‘become’ different, or ‘turn against’ that which has become.
The root ‘wert’ or ‘wurt’ describes a dynamic of ‘that which comes’ or ‘befalls’, informing us of the power to control fate to change destiny, fortune, chance, and ‘turn into’, which is a development into ‘becoming’.
(source: etymonline.com)
In dictionaries, we also find the following definitions:
‘the supernatural’, ‘magical’, ‘witchcraft’, ‘strange’ and ‘extraordinary’, and many people fear what is commonly labelled as such, but guess what… the opposite, labelled ‘normal’, and the effort to become normal, contains a lot of unseen and weird stuff, so it’s not quite as ordinary as we might pretend it is, and I get it, it’s not for everyone to see this, some prefer to walk away and put the blinders on, but just remember for now, that I only mentioned it and didn’t exclude anybody... but weirdly so, I’ve been excluded al lot in life and didn’t get it.
I didn’t realize that there was a norm,
an order to become ordinary.
I discovered that if everyone around has a desire to become normal, there’s not much for me to do about it, but it doesn’t automatically mean I’m going along, in order to become exclusive or special, just because people around have decided they are normal.
They decided, not me.
You see?
They decided to be normal.
De-sided… they decided not to be on my side, because on my side, I was tagged with the ‘weird-label’. OK, sometimes I had traits that fit in their normalcy, but overall I was weird according to them, but to me, on my side, I saw that I can decide… to be what, who, when or wherever I want to be... on my side, their side, the other side, the middle-ground of the sides, undecided.
It’s maybe weird, but more free.
Flowing
Besides that, (pun intended) I learnt to love life’s magic.
The more the better, and it’s getting better. In fact, I rely on IT.
So, Here We Go… Part 2 of this Weird Intro In a Moment of Awe IT came to ME Two OKs joined together written in the Dutch ‘OKE’
Okeko Came To Me In 2005
I was truly flabbergasted nobody had found this palindrome before me. A lot happened that year. Although my world was falling apart, and my house of cards came down so to speak, gradually I did find myself playing with Okeko.
You are OK, I am OK, let’s dance to the end of fun, let IT happen and depart. What happens between us is so much more than the sum of the parts we play. In Okeko we participate, party, reach and weave beyond the known, learn & share true tantra style to heal and raise consciousness.
I Write On Substack Because
It’s time for me to spread wings and buzz like a bee, fully embody Okeko’s concept and bee free. There’s no way around IT. I feel I’ve done it all. On my side and their side; de-sided to play the other side, decided, undecided and side-stepping to find a middle-ground… in other words, after having a private bodywork practice for 17 years in the Netherlands and Spain, I needed a break. I needed rest and healing, it was magical to received it, and in the following 11 years I was an active player on the healing playgrounds free of charge. I got donations, got all I needed. But, repelled by the choice of shallowness of people in the bricks and mortar world around me, and in order for me to expand I now share in crowded ‘places’ such as Substack where I have a better chance to reach people who love to dive in the deep with me, and wholeheartedly long to learn & share healing to raise consciousness. Maybe I’ll even find people who love to support me and/or collaborate with me….
Just Looking For Fertile Soil To Plant My Seeds
Besides that, writing gives me ‘light-bulb’ moments, so maybe reading this will give you some of these moments too.
So… here I play in the flow and power of infinite consciousness, what I call ‘the me’ in us. Some call it Soul, a subjective experience of IT (Spirit).
Some call it ‘Self’, and one meaning of its root is not highlighted enough in my view: ‘same, identical’, from the German language ‘selbaz’ and source of the Dutch ‘zelf’.
The Dutch word ‘zelfde’ means same and similar.
We find ‘same’ in the Dutch ‘samen’ which means ‘together’.
‘Society’ in Dutch is ‘Samenleving’ literally: together-living.
Whereas ‘personal’, the popular explanation of the word ‘self’, from the Latin ‘persona’, originally means ‘a mask’ and ‘false face’.
‘ME’ is sameness in every body When you use the word ME you mean exactly the same as when I use the word ME IT is identical
Although our pathways are different, the fact that we’re walking on a path is the same. It might take some courage to find a guiding flow of love, creativity and intelligence on our journey, nevertheless, I invite you, to open mind and heart to let ‘me’ and ‘the me in you’ join, allowing IT to enlighten ‘the We’.
In the ‘classroom container’ videos, I talk about the ‘inner pyramid IT-ME-I’ where healing experiences flow. If we allow flow, we become more aware of the bio-energetic and psychological dynamics in and around the body.
IT, I, ME / IT, ME, I / I, ME, IT / I, IT, ME / ME, IT, I / ME, I, IT Sounds only weird for the one who wants to stay ‘there’ in the ‘outer pyramid’ trying to climb hierarchies to become ‘the one’ or join ‘the one’s’ locked in a one-personality detached from ‘the Self’ and the Body For me, and the ‘others’ like me IT is a flow of love, creativity and intelligence. If IT flows I can create personalities that suit Me I can change masks I can become a character and leave a character I can play be here and there I can be nowhere and everywhere be nothing and everything I can relate to You relate to Them dance to the end of fun and Leave
WE is an extension of ME if IT flows in the ‘inner pyramid’
if IT doesn’t flow here, there will never be ‘a WE’.
To rise on stage in the theatre of the world we need to confuse the ‘inner pyramid’, hinder flow and lock ‘the self’ in ‘the I’, (one-personality) i.e. totally identify with for instance a job title, in other words, we have to ‘become someone’.
In the breaking-up of flow in the ‘inner pyramid’, ‘the me’, struggling with the maintenance of flow, will unavoidably confront other people, and they possibly tag ‘the me’ with their ‘weird-label’. Maybe even attack me. Specially when I am not so sure ‘what it is about me’.
They who believe they are ‘they’, can’t face the results of what was done to ‘them’ (psychological bifurcation) and therefore project the same splitting dynamic in the ‘outside’ world, getting so used to the split in ‘US and THEM’ that they think it is ‘normal’, just like the split in ‘I and YOU’.
Huh? Don’t worry…. This will come back later on when I share part my story dive deep in the mechanics of what I just wrote
Of course, division is artificial. Based on an attachment to façade and false beliefs, glued to the masks we wear in the forced collective way of life without spirit. On the other hand, if we practise ‘mental martial arts’ we can use this force to repair flow in the ‘inner pyramid’, learning to trust inner guiding systems again (emotions, fears and feelings) and recognize a life-lesson so profound, that it will protect our ‘Cosmic Egg’ or bio-energy sphere 24/7.
As you will see, the simplicity of IT is staggering. I can easily share IT with a five-year-old, which, by the way, is possible if kids are permitted to play their part in Okeko.
When WE relate, we slow-down, tell, recount and let go (depart). Healing took place, and now we are adjusting to the new energy dynamics in ‘the me’.
Healing takes place (IT heals) when our ‘Cosmic Eggs’, aka informed bio-energy fields meet, because of, let’s call it, interference of energies between us, which attracts Universal flows that intensify healing processes.
Many teachers, masters, gurus, organizations, institutions, etc. have claimed this organic flow as theirs, as we will see later if you are still with me and like to participate in Okeko.
‘Separation-Culture’ In the UK? Well… In the English Language Some Words Got Separated and Lost Their Connection to Words With the Same Root whereby they Lost Some Meanings The Energetic Flow Between Them Broken I’ll Take Some Super-glue and Start Repairing Just like ‘I’ can separate from ‘Me’ I can find my way back to Me and repair heal I can trust and tell only what is true in me I can honestly feel pain, fear and emotions in Me In Dutch, I can say: “Ik ben (I am) integer” which means I am in a flow of Integrity, part of the Whole Therefore, I am positive and negative, and find grounding in the body Body or ‘Lijf’ in Dutch = the root of Life Be = Live Be-Live or Belief means be-love; hold dear, from the root ‘lief’: dear; beloved; darling In Dutch Life and Live are One Word: ‘Leven’ It’s a Verb and a Noun We Live “we leven” That’s Life “dat is het leven” ‘Live-on’ might be the word to glue life+live together again. We Live-on That’s Live-on In Mestreechs (dialect from Maastricht, the oldest city in the Netherlands) it is called ‘leeve’ and next to ‘live-on’ it also means ‘dear’ and ‘darling’. Life/Live/Live-on is to Be Love and Be-love Oh, dear…. OK, Last Worthy Play with Life Lijf (Body) Life Body is the World to Live-on But Who wants to be in IT? Inspired by IT Watch my Words They might sound Weird Maybe You Find Me Half Mad although the Other Half Remembers Written Words are Spells ‘Spel’ = ‘Game’ in Dutch We can play with words Play till we Weigh Just An Ounce (Maastrichter expression) Like in Law We Play with Words Until we Find Meaning In Common Law Play Fair No-body hurts or gets harmed when We Find Sameness in ‘the Me’ again That’s why in Okeko We Talk and Relate Mend and Re-pair ‘Govern’ meant because Govern was a Service to Mend Controversy Between People Govern to Mend It got Inverted Govern to Split Maybe… By Sharing my story We can Converse Later and Revert this Inversion Efflux a Track OK, Shifting Gears… Get ready
For Part 2 “Psychological Bifurcation in a Clan-Culture” in the next newsletter.