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Just as a Woman I Come | Part 2 | Re: Visa & Erik
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Go… To The Two Guys First
Before You Swallow My Prose
Visa’s “Stupid Bravery” & Erik’s “The Road is Life”.…
They hugely helped me to see the synchrony of healing processes and the rise of consciousness in our spirited body-world, just now. It sure saves me also a lot of time trying to convey the same messages as they are sharing in their newsletter, besides that, their writing is so beautiful, they have the ability to relate their adventures and let it all flow on my screen, saying it all without, it seems, effort. However, that’s exactly what Visa tunes into, how he writes an essay that feels good in less time and effort, the artist’s way… isn’t it?
He makes it very clear that creating art is connected to feeling, and I’ll add healing. This is so brilliant… he helped me so much to say it very clear: “what we won’t feel, can’t heal, and can’t manifest” Mani = hand… and presto! We see the connection crystal clear between feelings (and emotions and fears), healing (bio-energy) and the body, manifesting with a hand (physical) that creates for instance art, besides that, because Visa relates architecture (I’ll add: of the body) with feeling, I’m able to say: feelings (and emotion and fears) bridge (arch) psychological bifurcation, and by respecting the arches that bridge the structures of the body, by feeling whatever we feel, and having all emotions and facing and feeling our fears, we can let IT (spirit) heal, and raise consciousness so that we can create and manifest what we really really want in our spirited body-world.
WOW that feels great!!!
Yummy… I bet you swallowed that pretty nicely, hey ☺
Yeah, baby… ah-um, I can tell you… just as a woman… so much more in Okeko Learn and Share Gatherings to Heal and Raise Consciousness. Just give me a minute, will you, to tell you about my background of more than 35 years, learning, sharing, experiencing life on and off the road, responding to all people around and gradually becoming aware of our (conscious) healing processes. I can share tales from a teacher, connecting with children, staff and parents in different primary schools intending to improve cooperation to remedy controversy and support each other, 17 years of intense, intentional connections with people in stress, fear and pain in my bodywork practice in the Netherlands and Spain, and 9 years of bio-energy therapy and playing with and in the flow of bio-energy in Scotland where I learned to kick-start healing-processes while refusing to ‘become someone…’ which will come back later on in this post.
Not to mention the emotional roller-coaster and horror I allowed, entertained and explored on my own and with family, friends and partners, and of course in society, including meeting the masters, in and out of the woods meeting the wild in nature and in me, the spirits in my Cosmic Egg or soul (another word for ‘the me’), AND still haven’t figured IT all OUT.
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My Spirited Body-World
IT’s the only world We’ve got
the rest is a Reproduction…
confronting US with a reflection
(called they or them) damn it
Maybe it gets a bit to metaphysical now, so let’s shine a light on Erik.
Yeah…, ERIK Is The Next Body I’d Like To Meet
His Substack is called ‘Poetic Outlaws’ and like a fugitive he boon-docks the Wild World just now, and I get IT, many times I’m on the verge of running to the hills, and I do escape in the woods with Gem (‘my’ dearest canine friend) many days a week. Erik also fired me up a lot, and I’m sure I returned the flavour with my comments on his Substack. It’s my emotions that still make me kick and scream; it’s the enfant terrible in me, and I want to apologize in advance for what comes out of me. It shocks me too. But… without shock I’m stuck. Besides that, life also shocks, not to mention spirits who don’t let me of the hook, the hook that I made, with and without You, on our way to see ‘the We’ crystal clear on the middle-ground between Us and Them.
An Outlaw Can Be Outside Universal Law As Well
Even If It Is a Poetic One
Like a fugitive from the law within and ‘out there’, thus active as an escapist of ‘the self’ and exercising too much control over the flow of spirit (which is to me more than one stream, as I explain later) influencing and updating the informed bio-energy sphere (Soul) 24/7, we contract (the result of too much control and keeping the power) and mostly unaware to thereby give the programmed part of the mind free rein to psychologically bifurcate our integrity (yes, the integrity we long for and that WE ARE when we allow IT, spirit) which takes ‘us’ (the subordinates) on a ride to run around like headless, unfeeling chickens in a one-personality disorder, afraid to allow emotions, feelings and fears to crack our nut-cases, and as a result stay in character just to show-up for ‘them’ (authorities) the way they want.
Not Sure, Whether You Swallowed This One
But it helps if we see we’re just mimicking our childhood mode, yes, the boys and girls we once were without option, forced in a subordinate position to obey Mum/Dad in order to survive, and this mode resulted in an inversion of the flow of energy in our bio-energy sphere which leads to a bifurcated psyche, and we’re projecting this onto the world around our bodies, and therefore often accept authorities in the setting we’re taught to see as ‘the world’, and if we refuse to feel what was done to us in childhood and refuse to have emotions and fears, we will find our-selves stuck..., in stress, anxiety and pain, and don’t know ‘what to do’, forgetting how we got here.
Healing and relating, including telling what’s true and leaving relationships, in other words, allowing detachment will be very difficult without feeling, if not impossible when we refuse to start with the bond we had with Mum/Dad and then proceed to inquire the bonds with people around, and ultimately with authorities, whether they call themselves teacher, therapist, master, minister, governor, boss, guru, counsellor, etc., or we call them so, the childhood mode is mimicked and continues the process of psychological bifurcation, disturbing our integrity further.
The Quest is “who’s boss?” and the answer… I will just, let it... hang in the air for now; I’m the author here, so bugger off.
Let’s Talk About The Split That Wants To Reunite Inner And Outer Realities In An Undivided Duality Reality
Firstly, I see how the fugitive in us would benefit from inclusion in an Okeko Gathering. I can only offer, it’s all about having a choice. What I love about Erik’s newsletter is that he speaks very clear about the seeming division between the world and the wild world. I love to dance in the gaps and make the undivided duality reality known. I know that this will shock me and ‘the me’ in you, probably often, but I also love it, and other love shocks, I also love Erik, love Poetic Outlaws, so here and there you go ♫ ☺ ♫ in the songs of life, dancing to the cosmic and comic tunes on and off the road, where I secretly hope you love it too.
Let Me Sing A Bit With You, Will You?
Just Playing for Synthesizer or maybe as 'Reverter' or Relater
I see why, a few days ago, a rabbit walked on the road in front of ME, when I chose the left side of the fork. He did tell me to go for his hole, but later IT came to Me that he meant “go for the whole and show some integrity”.
So Let’s Go
For IT
It should have struck me immediately, but I didn’t feel it. Just when I finished my two podcasts “About Ego”, the first episodes in the new Okeko sub-section “Entertaining Intermezzo” I received the two newsletters in my inbox, and they put me in the turmoil almost nobody wants to be in, except me and the people who know ‘the me’ in themselves; I call it ‘the me’ because I want to point out the sameness of ‘self’ in and around all bodies.
So, What Is It?
What struck me? We (as an extension… (out of tension) of ‘me’) are allowing healing, we are bonding without entanglement, attaching and detaching, like breathing in and letting go, like inflating and deflating ego, in the flow of feelings that guide to thoughts, that guide to feelings that guide to thoughts, where the architecture of the body receives energy-in-formation, feelings, emotions, and fears that can manifest as intuition and intelligence, if we allow it, and transcript what we become aware of by transforming it in words on a laptop screen, the result of which you’re reading right now, and includes the potential to pass-on healing that raises consciousness, igniting an enlightening journey for writer and reader.
Which Is Only Temporarily
WE can’t stay here. WE can’t stay there. Well, we can, but then we detach from ‘me’, and refuse… to become the self (the same as me) to own the Self, and to be ‘our’-selves. When we have some courage like Erik and Visa we’ll see that we need feelings to become ourselves, but I wouldn’t say that this bravery is stupid, as Visa titled it, as, for me, it is a drive to let the healing and rise of consciousness happen, to create and share our creations.
What We Won’t Feel, Can’t Heal
Feelings bridge the physical and the energetic realms of our spirited body-world, they also bridge psychological bifurcation, which is the topic of my next newsletter “That’s IT About Me and Okeko; Psychological Bifurcation in the Clan-Culture”, exquisitely described by Erik in his newsletter “The road is life” which is in my view an expression of tension between feeling ‘the world’ and ‘nature’, or in other words, ‘the world’ and ‘the wild world’, where he writes about his decision to travel and temporarily boon-dock as a solution to find middle-ground between ‘the world’ and ‘the wild world’, here and there, us and them, spirit and identity, and so on, but he also reunites ‘the we’ if we see the sameness of our stories, the identical tension in our psychological bifurcation that we are or were in, which hurt so much in childhood because we desperately wanted love, food and shelter from Mum/Dad; we also wanted to love and help them, but they didn’t love themselves or help themselves, generally speaking, confused by the influence of ‘the world’ that ‘they’ allowed to penetrate in their informed bio-energy sphere that Soul and Spirit repairs 24/7 but which often doesn’t feel good.
They Were Often Besides Themselves
The tension of reaching out to Mum/Dad who couldn’t or wouldn’t properly relate, is still playing out in the same tension as expressed in the newsletters of Visa and Erik, and in synchrony with the temporarily darkness of the eclipse on the 8th of April.
In my community in Scotland no-body around me noticed the eclipse, or want to be conscious of and feel this tension, which is normalized here, probably also because of the clouds that obscure the Sun most of the time, and during the eclipse, and seem to obscure the light within as well, so that the bodies around fail to notice what’s going on in and around them.
Since I’m moving in the direction of creating a ‘place’ here on Substack for Online Okeko Gatherings to Heal and Raise Consciousness, a place “between tavern and temple” which is a quote from Visa’s newsletter, I’ll give examples of what can happen if they (Erik and Visa) would talk to me in a gathering. I would be able to respond to what they say in real-time, and point-out the potential of conversations (converting and thus reverting the inversions that were done to and for us by Mum/Dad) with instant healing as a result, because of a temporary healing bond and intent, to relate properly (slow down, tell, recount, and leave) for 2 hours with a maximum of 9 people and then leave, to integrate the healing that happened, allow it to radiate to the people around and maybe even have conversations with them, about it.
But it’s not happening (yet) so I’ll share some responses here and pretend we’re talking ☺ because IT came to Me in a vision.
One of my responses to Erik and Visa is “Soul is repairing Ego” ha ha, it’s just so thrilling to realize this. It blows my mind.
Besides that, to think about how both guys, after quite a big break, I mean the long pause they took to share an update about themselves in their newsletters, entered my bubble (Cosmic Egg aka informed bio-energy sphere, informed field, or aura) at the same time, and just before an eclipse!!! LOL, while we’re all doing the same, we share and learn, learn and share, learn to share, and share to learn from our spirited body-world, we’re finding the middle-ground between Us and Them, I and You, the World and the Wild World, Here and There, Spirit and Meat-suit, Feeling and Thought, Emotions and Art, Fear and Bliss, Healing and Creating and so on.
Visa wants to write essays that ‘feel good’ in less time and effort, and shows us he can do it, while making the connection clear between architecture and feeling, and I tried to help him a bit with my comment at 2 AM, pointing at the architecture of the body, the ground where it all happens. He’s in the process of discovering his psychological bifurcation as well, by seeing that he’s learning to allow and follow feelings of the bodily architecture instead of thinking about the architecture of an essay or how they should feel:
“As I reread this essay to check for typos etc, it’s striking to me that I’ve put so much time and energy into thinking extensively about what my essays should look like, what their structure should be, what the topics should be, etc, but I’ve spent comparatively little time really just exploring how my essays should FEEL. I mean, I have thought about that too– ‘all the channels at once’, ‘afterimages’, etc– but the disparity is making me question right now, what if I did it the other way around? What if, having thought so much about the details, I now focused on whatever feels most compelling?
The discovery of psychological bifurcation which sometimes, in the bridging of the split, manifests in me as humble arrogance, or arrogant humbleness or as an expression of what feels true to ‘the me’ in me, which I’m sharing now; in the documentary about the life of a “solitary mann”* I see that Jeremy* is only solitary when he doesn’t get floored by many flowering Goddesses. I wish they would also accompany Erik on his travels in the wild. Or is that too wild, to think about?
*see the link in Visa’s newsletter to the documentary of Jeremy Mann
Besides that, are we be able to see the attempts of a coagulated ego, to bypass feelings, fears and emotions, ‘to get there’ where Mum/Dad wanted us to go? Because... let’s get it crystal clear… who wants to be hiding in a nut-case, or wretched to HAVE the emotions that crack the case and let the light in, and follow the bliss of inspiration to create an art to live-on?
IT’S NUTS
But I still Like To Be
In the Vision
That Came To Me
Imagine Visa telling me in an Okeko Learn & Share Gathering what he shared in his newsletter…. Let me give proof of my audacity and bravery to add to his excellent and artful share, and give proof of my intention to pass on the healing I received, pretending to be in a conversation, and reverting a part of the inversion that was done to and for Visa (and me of course).
Breathe In and Let Go
Firstly, I haven’t read Visa’s next newsletter “a matryoshka of possibilities” and Erik’s “The Ultimate return” yet, I didn’t have the guts. I admit that it’s an attempt to keep sane by regulating and controlling the influx of information, and feeling whether I’m ready to what- or whoever knocks my door to enter my bio-energy sphere. I already get carried away so often, which is one of the points in this response-essay-newsletter, to allow it, to get carried away, however I also can be in control when I deliberately slow down the influx of information, to be able to properly dive in and relate to the stuff that I allowed.
I’m learning to learn and share here on Substack. The sharing part is under pressure, my home is full of stacks ;) and that said, there are also ways to regulate the amount of spirited in-formation-packages that fire-up my Cosmic Egg Inbox.
My response to Visa’s:
“I particularly love how Borges put it: that the artist is at work even when he is asleep, dreaming. I feel that very deeply. I can’t really turn it off.”
Well, we can, just like children swap one toy for another, it can be that simple, that is… a lot depends on the attachments we hold on to in our world, for instance family.
If ‘they’ hinder us in the process of creating art, the body will be in the tension between socializing and creating… which points out the architecture of the world we’ve built around us, the influence of it in our informed bio-energy sphere and our ability to let energy-in-formation flow or stop IT (it’s up to me to tell spirit to bugger off: “For Fff sake, I need to rest now”) so that WE become better at using the right keys on the motherboard, and learn the difference between righteous and useless control, also to prevent ego to coagulate or blow up the fuses in our bubble (Cosmic Egg).
WOW… that feels awesome…
I bet you swallowed this one pretty nicely too, hey… ☺
OK, Let’s Go For IT A Quick Intermezzo ♫ ♫ ♫ The very short version of what I share on Substack
The IT/Me/I pyramid in my informed bio-energy sphere (Cosmic Egg) wants to flow, which means I live-on in my Spirited Body-World, IT (spirit) heals and fuels ME; when you use the word ‘me’, you mean exactly the same as when I use the word ‘me’; WE is an extension of ME; YOU is an extension of I… I AM YOU and You and I, temporary identified with for instance the body, a person, archetype, object, mood, feeling, emotion and so on, still knows/feels ‘the me’ and knows/feels IT (spirit).
Unless we psychologically bifurcate, and You and I split, thinking we’re disconnected, instead of detached, separated by a coagulated ego, trapped in a one-personality disorder, totally and permanently identified for instance with the above mentioned, and/or with a title, a job-title, amount of money in the bank, bodily appearance, lifestyle and so on, forgetting ‘the me’ and IT.
When unaware of the dynamics of psychological bifurcation we separate from feelings, we bypass or repress them, or turn them into feelings we like better and so on, often to mimic the orders of Mum/Dad to stop feeling, fearing or thinking in a certain way, which expresses itself into the swapping of ‘I into You’ when we speak or write about feelings, in an attempt NOT to ‘really’ own the feelings (or fears and thoughts) we share with others, it’s a bit like walking with a safety-blanket around the body to break the fall just in case we make a mistake (that exposes us because secretly we didn’t fully adapt to the ‘clan-culture’) and don’t want to feel it, we want to stay wrapped up in the safety-blanket, to make sure we stay in the ‘clan’ i.e. we don’t admit to feelings that are deemed inappropriate (for instance ‘not nice’) and the more we ignore, change, adapt, suppress, bypass feelings (and emotions and fears) the bigger the split we make in our psychological bifurcation (also expressing itself in widening the split between ‘I and You, Us and Them, the world and the wild world, the world and the spirited body-world’), because the programmed part of the mind becomes the boss over the body, and hinders its organic functioning, which contracts muscles and bends its architecture, and that is when the arches in the body start to ache to warn ‘the me’ that I’m going over-board (almost beside myself) so to speak, in other words, obey the group-mind and the authority that takes on the role of leader, to subdue spirit and swap ‘IT… (spirit) into Them, or They’, all the power for one person to keep, who can use that power to control the group-mind, so that peer-pressure does what it always did… (in families and schools, for instance) suppressing individuality, suppressing individuals i.e. bodies in an undivided duality reality, in the hope that they ‘shut up’, take on-board the dis-ease that the group doesn’t want to feel, get mad, out of their minds, and preferable hide in their nut-case, never to come out with IT again.
The message is clear: “stay ‘there’ in the pit of pain”.
Yeah, it can be a reason to swap I into You, when we talk or write, in the hope, and in a demand to be validated as a member of the clan, and not stick out too much, to have a soft blanket around the body to land on in case we fall flat on our nose, and/or have upset to many clan-members with our weirdness.
It’s on the other hand often liberating when somebody admits (using the ‘I’) like: “Yes, I said that, see you later”, and moves on, i.e. without worry that it might be upsetting for someone in the clan (which is really a set up for inducing new information in our bio-energy spheres, which is healing, which raises consciousness).
I bet you swallowed this part pretty nice too, hey… ☺
OK… Back To Visa
and the swap of ‘I into You’
By the way, I caught myself doing it too :) as you can read in the postscript of “Entertaining Intermezzo About Ego”
Oh…, Hang On
I just found something else interesting in Visa’s newsletter, so I’ll do that first.
“When it comes to essays, I feel confident about my own words and voice, but it’s the structure that messes me up.”
Yes, this is said from a mind-set that wants structure... but it’s the feelings of (and in) the architecture (of the body) that messes up (the programmed part of) the mind.
‘The Me’ doesn’t give a monkey about what my mind messes up.
Me just waits until I’m done messing IT up.
OK, Back to Visa’s Swapping I into You And the Lovely Energy Flow that Reverts Our Inversion When We Swap It All Back and Bring What We Say Home, Into Feeling and Embodying IT
“and I do believe that a lot of the skillset of being a good writer is simply allowing yourself to have lots of such happy accidents”
[myself into yourself]
“It requires discarding some of the good sentences and paragraphs that you wrote because they don’t serve the book you’re writing”
[I into You and I’m into you’re]
“I remember being so amused when I first read that, because I had picked up The Timeless Way Of Building for some light reading to take a break from the emotionally harrowing project of writing Introspect, which is all about facing your feelings, and it turns out that building, too, is all about facing your feelings.”
[twice, my into your]
“I have “thinking is easy, information architecture is hard”, and “you can’t think your way out of a courage deficit”, and “make elaborate plans and then disregard them completely to make whatever you think is most compelling”, and now, via a confluence of Christopher Alexander and Jeremy Mann and Victor Wooten, I have “architecture is about feeling” and/or “architecture requires courage”. They’re all related. Information architecture is hard not just because it’s a technical challenge, it’s hard because it requires the courage to face and acknowledge your feelings.”
[You into I, My into Your]
“It’s now 1:21 AM. My draft history tells me that I started writing this at 10:25PM. That puts us at just under 3 hours”
[Me into Us]
Oh Yeah, I also want what Visa wants:
“I just want people to think more clearly about things”
besides that, I want people to Feel more Clearly About ‘things’.
Remember I wrote this?
“Yeah, it’s a reason to swap I into You, in the hope, and in a demand to be validated as a member of the clan, and not stick out too much”.
In Visa’s informed bio-energy sphere, the swapping back of ‘You into I’ could lead to the following realization in him, to be able to say: “I’m feeling the tension, and therefore bridging the psychological split and now I’m ready to allow and embody the proud feeling of accomplishment, which is courageous”.
“It requires discarding some of the good sentences and paragraphs that you wrote because they don’t serve the book you’re writing”
Feel the difference after the swapping back of You into I:
It requires discarding some of the good sentences and paragraphs that I wrote because they don’t serve the book I’m writing”
Feel how he would embody the conclusion (in my view) that although he wrote “good sentences and paragraphs”, it’s not for the book, because the book he’s writing is so good, even better than what he wrote before, that it’s out of the question to tolerate these “good sentences and paragraphs”. He wants to serve the reader with insights from a higher perspective, or deeper feeling.
In most ‘clan-cultures’ we are not allowed to say that about ourselves and/or our creations. We stick-out too much, it’s better to throw in some humbleness to mask the splinter of arrogance needed to upgrade the informed bio-energy sphere of ‘the self’. It’s quite terrifying to stand on the middle-ground of an undivided duality reality, for instance between us and them, without trying to stay entangled in a web of social acceptance.
On the middle-ground between humbleness and arrogance I feel how it was to be cast out, to be drifted away from the clan, rejected, humbled and humiliated until ‘there’ was nothing left to cast out, I was burnt out, and imprisoned in my nut-case. But I came out. ‘There’ were people who saw me. ‘They’ helped me. It even became a lot of fun to share myself. That’s when I learned to follow inspiration, and instinct to raise consciousness, let the healing happen, even when I got ‘out-casted’ by the very people who saw, and helped me before.
Of course, it hurt, that’s what happens when I go ‘off course’, i.e. the course Mum/Dad had planned, which is the course many are on, and therefore have to reject me and ‘the me’ in them.
But I was also excited to get on in IT…. And so I did.
Fair to say, I learned not to hide what’s true in me, and see rejection as a compliment and proof of ‘me’ growing again; making it clear who is NOT growing with (and in) me. Sure, ‘there’ are still feelings I rather not feel, emotions that I rather not have, but because I was really courageous to feel so much, I’m now able to write about IT, and although my hand still shakes when I’m about to hit that damn green publish button, I feel relieved when I do; it’s out ‘there’, I’m able to move on and play. It raises consciousness when I write, I heal ‘here’ and ‘there’ is a project I look forward to.
It looks so much easier to pretend that I’m not over the moon, that I’m not feeling proud about myself and my creations, and to make it crystal clear for myself, feeling proud that I had the courage to go through the dark and feel what was done to me from birth, the emotional roller-coaster that I endured, with people who tried to convince me it’s better to subdue spirit and better not to stick out, and feeling proud that I was brave to let the light come back that showed me that this was also done FOR me, so that I would wise-up.
Yay, I’m over the Moon!
I’ve De-clipsed Myself
Wow, I’m now able to dive-in and relate (to) these ‘clan-culture’ dynamics, and let the psychological bifurcation heal, and by allowing the healing that I received let it pass-on to other bodies and in my case (my inspired body-world) even offer a ‘place’ “between tavern & temple” to talk, have a dialogue, to converse, convert, revert this ‘I into You’ swapping, normalized in ‘clan-culture’ conversations.
We now have the ability to support Visa and Erik (and ‘the Visa and Erik’ in us) to just say it as it is, come out with and in IT
For example, looking in Visa’s ‘case’ I’m gonna play for Visa now, and speak from the ‘other’ side of the bifurcated psyche
I’m proud that I wrote a magnificent book without effort that reflects the rise of consciousness, and healing I received, which enables me to step up, be on a higher level in the process of my enlightening embodiment. I love to share my experience, and meet other bodies for me to dance and sing with so that we rise-up even higher.
Isn’t it awesome that I found out how I used to suppress feelings? Now I know that these feelings guide me to write a very good essay in a short time with the least amount of effort. I now can halt the influence from my programmed mind, which forcibly tells me what I should write, how I should write, how my essays should feel, and what the goal of my writing is.
I now see that the architecture of my spirited body produces the exact feelings/thoughts that I need, to see very clear the connection between all bodies around, circumstances and events in life, and the relevance of all these connections for my work, my bliss to express it on Substack, creating art to live-on, besides my growing awareness and ability to remark harmony and synchronization in the Cosmic dances and Songs of Life that I also allow in my creations through the words I type on my laptop-screen.
Wow… the bravery of me to feel all this and click that green publish-button!
Just Like Erik points, on and off the road, here and there at Life… at the sameness of our seemingly different stories, so that I can admit for instance that here and there is the spirit of ‘the genius in me’ who allows the kicking and screaming of ‘the enfant terrible in me’ in order to process the emotions of ‘what was done to me’ and for me to alert people around me: ‘I’m in an undivided duality reality’ even when I upset ‘you’ (intentionally or not) and invite ‘you’ to see ‘the me’ too!
Usually, we don’t have bodies around who support us to rise-up. ‘They’ are often threatened by the emerging undivided duality reality of ‘the me’, and I’m not hiding my attempt to bridge this struggle with Okeko Learn & Share Gatherings. I think and feel it’s awesome that I offer my spirited body-world without going ‘over-board’ and become someone… which is the end of fun, and play. But it also doesn’t mean I’m gonna hide the way I got to this point of offering online gatherings. It was quite a journey! And the journey goes on. I would be over the moon when somebody would tell me about my blind-spots, and has the courage to set me up for discovering the energetic vault in my body where trauma is stored, which I’m sure is a topic that will come back in my Substack. I only have two hands to type all this.
I joked earlier “I’m the author here, bugger off”, but I don’t need to ‘become’ a writer, an author, an authority in what I call a ‘one-personality-disorder’. This would lock me up. I get stuck ‘there’. I can’t dance the cosmic (and comic) dances ‘there’ and sing the Songs of Life ‘there’, my body doesn’t support that.
I can however play on its middle-ground between ‘here’ (the parts that belong in me) and ‘there’ as a participant in Okeko. ‘Just’ be me, and you can ‘bee’ me too. In 2005, Okeko came to Me, ‘just’ as a child, just like a poem comes to a poet (‘poet’ means child in my Dutch mother-tongue-dialect) and if the poet realizes ‘the me’ in the spiralling Cosmic dynamics, he doesn’t have to run around in circles like a headless, unfeeling chicken, like I once was running around, unaware, and told off for feeling, having emotions, having fears, allowing healing and my attempts to feel the tensions (and controversy, harm and trauma) in the world of Mum/Dad, the worlds of children, parents and staff in primary schools, the worlds of students and teachers in bodywork trainings, the worlds of spirit, ‘I’ and ‘me’, friends, family, partners, clients and masters, ‘the world and the wild world’ and so on, and my attempts to bridge. I could have ignored so many cross-roads and become someone, because I was offered positions, but my bodily and mental health did deteriorate at a fast pace when I tried to accept the pose, state and status.
I got stuck again, dispirited.
This tension, I mentioned above is like an elastic that binds these seemingly separate worlds. It’s quite an art not to split the psyche to comfort others (who refuse to feel, heal, express and create). I learn not to rip apart ‘the me’ but let it (spirit) rip apart the elastic, let it break, and feel the integrity of being part of the whole, alone. ‘The other’ who also realizes ‘the me’ is waiting around the corner to play with and in ‘the me’, so that we relate, rise and wise-up.
Maybe It’s ‘The Me’ In You ☺
Let’s listen for a moment to a participant in an Okeko Gathering….
He is exploring his feelings and the swap of ‘I into You’, which is only a simple example of how psychological bifurcation expresses itself. There’s so much to talk about and realize!
Note how the recording starts with the participant saying: “When You feel something…” and feel the difference for yourself… “When I feel something...”
If I wanted to, there’s so much to unwrap what was shared in these 5 minutes, but I leave it hanging in the air just now. This post is already growing as a chapter in a book ;)
BUT...
I Motivate You To Try This At Home Have Fun with IT Catch Yourself When You Swap I for You Even After Many Years Practise I still Catch Myself I’m Having Fun In IT Yes, Son… I’m Having Fun (a wink to another newsletter of Visa) Girls Just Want To Have Fun ♫ ♫ ♫ It Looks Like It Doesn’t Mean A lot But You’ll Only Feel the Difference When You Swap It Yourself I for You, and swap again You for I So Many People thanked Me for pointing It Out to Them That’s Why I pass IT on to You So that I can ‘Bee’ in the Currency of Gratitude ♫ ♫ ♫
Okidoki, Let’s Make Time For Erik
On and Off the Road
Erik escaped the dread of dying inside (my view) surrounded by people who refuse to own ‘the self’, allow emotions to crack their nut-case, find the seeds in this case, plant the seeds in fertile soil, become ‘me’ i.e. realize the sameness of ‘the me’ in bodies around, and identify with the power and flow of infinite consciousness (spirit) instead of staying in the case and in all likelihood identify as nut-case, or desperately trying to project their bifurcated psyche onto other people, and maybe even fight ‘them’, or totally and permanently identify with ‘a solitary man’ with or without Goddesses, and so on.
I’m sure you see ‘there’ are many ways to hide.
IT’S NUTS
Feel IT
I know how it feels to mark people as ‘them’ and I escaped ‘them’ many times as well. That’s how I discovered that it doesn’t matter whether I get buggered off by people around (refusing to see ‘me, know ‘me’, feel ‘me’, play with me and so on) or by a crawling centipede in my bed, biting me three times in the darkest hour of the night… I’m not kidding. When a friend asked me “why did (s)he do that?” I surprised both of us with my immediate response: “because (s)he wants me to Fff… Off”.
The centipede got support from the army of ticks crawling up the hill, asking me “what you gonna do when we come for you?”, and when the determined fleas made me itch very badly I finally ‘got it’….
I Needed To Move On I Can Not Stay Here I Needed to Find Out I Cannot Be Placed I Don’t Need a Position I’m Not In A Pose I’m Not In One Sense I ‘just’ have to Learn to Feel (feelings, emotions, fear) To Let Them Crack My Case
Letter to Erik
I feel you Erik, and am so happy with your update! I knew you were gone, ‘out there’ physically leaving ‘the world’, but you haven’t left (your idea of) ‘the world’ spiritually. I also left physically many times, but got stuck again, which was quite a ride. I’m not saying, don’t go out there, but in ‘the there’, there is an-other... (body) like Charley, to relate to, who relates his way to relate to ‘the world’ by making and selling his creations, and I encourage everybody who reads my comment here to support you too.
Although stationary in a community, I’m exploring life on the wu-wei-road, by truly relating my spirited body-world to people around, which is to me the only world... I invest in and feel I belong in. You might be interested in what I’m doing here on Substack, feel free to have a look and connect. I would be honoured if you’re willing to participate. For now, I’ll share what ‘jumped out’ to me in your newsletter:
“But this isn’t about me”
… oh, yes it is!
Every body has a ‘me’, whether we feel/know it or not, it points to the same and identical stuff in every body, at the least to me, and that’s where the “animating” spirits relate, plural, not one. A spirit is not some-one, but in ‘the world’ (when in childhood we hardly had an option to leave) we were indoctrinated to become someone, but the body (life) can’t become someone (as in total and permanent) because it wants to be in integrity (part of the whole) which is easier (to be in) when travelling or in ‘the wild’.
Spirit (which means to me: former selves and their knowledge and experience plus ancestry) is as much alive as me in my spirited body-world. There… is no division between IT and Me, IT and I, I and Me, here and there…. ‘There’ is an-other prompt to find middle-ground between here and there, if you know what I mean, and which Charley pointed out by the poem he gave you: “If you want me again look for me under your boot-soles” ‘The me’ under-stands the here and there, and ‘there’ are Charley’s everywhere; and maybe readers ‘here’ are Charley’s going nowhere, and reading this just now.
That’s why I learn & share, share & learn, learn to share, share to learn and secretly wishing here and there I’m appreciated.
Anyway, I Feel Inspired To Share And Wish You Well, Erik
Life is Body on the Road to Live-on
Back To When I Wrote:
“I Needed To Move On”
i.e. Feel IT, IT Heals
I’m not sure whether Visa and Erik are ready for what I moved on into, so to speak. I mean Okeko Learn & Share and what I’m creating in my spirited body-world. Whether they are willing to see and want to participate in Okeko, a ‘place’ “between tavern and temple”, where we can meet the stationary and travelling “Charley’s” from Erik’s newsletter, i.e. people fed up with the world, or better to say their ideas about ‘the world’ enjoying their solitude, but still seeing and prompted to see their connection with ‘the world’ because of the landscape and architecture of their body-world, and the roads it wants to travel.
Specifically, solitary artists selling stuff on the internet, and boon-docking but fuelling up their vans to keep on driving, and their courage to get smelly or feel through a tooth-ache and maybe ‘becoming’ totally natural without mosquito-crème, drugs, tobacco and alcohol, playing for a shaman who sees the light in the dark.
But It’s also a Shame Man
When ego gets so coagulated that we are fucking around…. Sorry about that. I still need to say it like this… it’s therapeutic for me. Fairly recently, the Scots in my community taught me to say “Fff off’, and I’m still learning…. “I’m getting there” they say.
Will we see that we’re just like little boys and girls, and swallowing our grief because Mum/Dad refused to relate? That we’re emotionally and spiritually drained by the very people who took on the job of caring for us? What if they can’t or won’t give a shite? Then, they give nothing and worse, they give, what harms us. They leave ‘us’ too soon, for ‘us’ to grow-up.
That’s the Start of Psychological Bifurcation
the split (they made) between Us and Them
But it’s weird… (see ‘That’s It About Me and Okeko; a Weird Introduction’)
We felt as outcasts, misfits, walking failures, unseen children, but ‘they’ cast themselves out, were beside themselves, and if we feel all that, we’ll see the insider in ‘us’, the body with insight, the body in an undivided duality reality and let IT heal.
It’s just an idea… to see that ‘the world’ took Mum/Dad away from ‘us’,
because Mum/Dad allowed ‘the world’ to infiltrate their bio-energy sphere, and allowed ‘the world’ to regulate it, i.e. their body-world.
It’s just an idea… that when we’re surrounded by infiltrated people (being oh so worldly) we get another opportunity to FEEL the harm that was done to ‘us’ by Mum/Dad.
What We Feel Heals
From What We Feel
We Can Create
It’s just an idea… that this harm was also done FOR ‘us’, for us to feel, to let IT (Spirit) heal, because I’ll say it again: “What we won’t feel can’t heal” and when we refuse to feel it, well… forget about receiving energy-in-formation, intuition, intelligence, being (in) the flow and power of infinite consciousness, including a flow of love and live-on, discover an art to live-on, ‘bee’ in our spirited body-world and have spirited conversations that refuel, ignite and reunite all our ‘former selves’ who keep an eye on ‘the me/we’ and know so much and felt so much because of their former meat-suits and what it is like to incarnate, which is an ongoing process as long as we’re attached to this smelly and bloody flesh machine, the same process as our ongoing process of enlightenment, enlightening this spirited body-world while WE are HERE and THERE, and hopefully find the middle-ground between the two.
For Goodness’ Sake Pascalle
Breathe In and Let Go
So… stop fucking around or start fucking around consciously Have some fun in it or Fff... Off Just talking to myself now
Let’s see, what else I want to share before I bugger off.
Pause again… breathe in and let go, breathe in and let go…
It’s just an idea to see ‘them’ and how ‘they’ split from ‘us’. Does that mean I have to acknowledge that split? No. *full stop* ‘There’ happen to be persons who love to snip the elastic. Got that? I call ‘them’ snippets, and they love to snip. I’m still connected to snippets, and let them think I’m not.
You have no idea what I did to convince ‘the snippets’ of the connection between me and ‘the me’ in them, in the wu-wei-way and deliberately, in the flow of love and out of it, and so on, even to my own detriment… take it from me, it’s not possible to convince anyone! That’s how I found out my play-ground, in other words, the middle-ground of me and my spirited body-world, and the flow of healing, the songs of life, the cosmic and comic dances, and the flow and power of consciousness, where I can be in control without being controlled, but still open to be influenced, and allow my informed bio-energy sphere to receive updates, including from ‘them’, because although ‘they’ believe to be disconnected I have a choice to bridge or not. I can tell you the playful stories, that are still ongoing, but not here and now….
I want to wrap up this newsletter.
Oh, yeah, and I’m not doing this newsletter-thing as a hobby, neither as a business, and I don’t even have a ‘donate’ button or activated my ‘paid’ option. So… share some love, will you? Hit that red heart, will you? Share some thoughts or feelings, will you? Yes, by all means, if you please to follow me like a shadow for a while… do so, but do consider subscribing, I won’t bite you! Well… I might bite back or play for mosquito if you toy with me. Oh hell, do whatever you want… I like my spirited body-world, I don’t need you to like it too, and since I learnt to see you suffer, I got time to write.
THERE… that’s the Rascal in Me
HERE I Am Calm Again
My Middle-Ground Wants to
Move and Shake You / Dive in Your Bubble / Tell What You Are Fucking Around With / Shock the Hinges Of Your Wits / Share So You Get It / Learn What the Fff… I’m Talking About
I Know I Talk To Myself
when I Talk to You
I Arrived At A Dead End When I Was Born Life Guided Me to the Fork in the Road My Ego was deflated People sucked the air Out of My valve I let Them When I was Old enough Men started sucking another valve IT became complicated I spoke up but IT didn’t make sense Women put rings around ME I walked in circles Both Men and Women Drove ME Nuts But Life stepped In my Nut-case Took Me out I was excited, terrified, but also smiling because Both Valves Got New Rubbers I learned to Pump and Allow Pump and Allow the valves to in- and deflate my bubble Breathing In and Letting Go Breathe In and Allow Ego Protected Me When Others Hurt Me And My valve Got Stuck Life Stepped In Once again I Got A New Valve This One doesn’t care about my Ego IT takes care of Itself IT listens to My Emotions IT Has Them and I learn to have them too Whenever I Feel someone sucks my valve lets air out When I ‘just’ feel My valve pumps air in IT tells Me what I didn’t know I’m sure these thoughts are not mine They are too brilliant to be mine But I’m allowing Them I’m allowed to Own these thoughts When I write them down and brave to Publish Them When I speak up I’m allowed to Shine Sorry about that Forgive Me I am getting Alive Pardon my French Wait Till you hear Me Speak Double Dutch Not to Mention ME-Streechs Hahahahahaha You ain’t alive enough to allow Me Speak the Dutch Dialect from the Rascal Province in the South (Limburg aka Limbabwe) It’s a bit like Scotland, but warmer and less windy and whiny Must be the Rain that gets Them ☺ Which surely Drive Me Nuts ATM (I mean the wind, clouds and rain ;) Greetings to My Friends in Maastricht the Oldest City in the Netherlands I Miss You Not But Love ‘the Me’ in You, Pascal the Rascal "Kintiemie? Weebittietaan?" Roughly translated as: “Do You Know Me? Then… Who Are You?" Still Having Fun Son? Sure, THE Question to Stop the Fun RECAP IT U Late Before It’s too Late to Relate Really Real Re-All Soul Repairs Ego Time for Us to Get There To-gether To Get It Here in Okeko Got IT? W... Ego Play in Okeko Find Middle-Ground Between Tavern & Temple Experiential Journeying ‘the Me’ In the Wild, with the travelling and stationary ‘Charleys’ in and out of the Woods Tell ME you Love to join ME Hit the BUTTONS The green AND the red one which lights up my heart Or tell Me, IT’s all Bull-Shit I’m also a Taurus, so I’m used to IT, even live with IT Or Stay There and Do Nothing Then, I’ll Wait Patiently Until I find another Seed in my Nut-Case and Plant IT in Fertile Soil Much Love, Bye For Now… eh, hold on…
NONONO I’m NOT Done!
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I have much more to say about Erik’s and Visa’s newsletters. I feel so incredible grateful for what they shared. So thank you guys, I love you, and especially ‘the me’ in you ;) HIT Their BUTTons too!!! Especially the PAID one’s.
Mine is COMING… soon ;)
I would love to receive support
Why Support Okeko?
It’s the conversation we need to have. Not every body has reached the level of an artist who has created an art to live-on, and neither does every body need to do just that; WE can pass IT on in Conversation, to CON-VERSE ‘in the moment’ when some-body learns and shares, shares and learns, and let the healing happen instantly for all participants. When one rises, we all rise.
RESPOND to, learn & share the blind spots, the energetic vaults in the body that store the stories and traumatic events, and let emotions, feelings and fears crack our nut-cases... IT heals and raises consciousness, which every participant can integrate in life if they want to. They even have a choice to share IT in conversations in their environment.
That’s Okeko Healing ‘The World’ Decentralized Follow Me like a Shadow TAKE PART or Depart But Love Pascalle I just come as a woman albeit in individual integrity allowing an undivided duality reality radiate out of my informed bio-energy sphere and absorb the sphere of bodies around, whereby the influence of each other’s sphere upgrades all of us that is, if ‘the us’ and ‘the them’ is integrated in ‘the we’
as an extension of ‘the me’, the flow and power of infinite consciousness in our Soul, and we allow it to guide ‘the we’ on the middle-ground of our spirited body-world, which is a play-ground really, where ego is allowed to be the breathing skin of our Cosmic Egg, protecting the informed bio-energy sphere 24/7, inflating and deflating, tuned to the Cosmic dances and Songs of Life, acknowledging that the body is an expression of the dances and the songs, and also acknowledge that we impress and influence other bodies. IT goes round and round.
So… Let’s Dance and Sing!
What I offer is simple. It’s for the stationary and travelling ‘Charleys’ who don’t have people around able or willing to feel them, feel themselves, feel it, feel their views, feel what they learn, feel what they share, or people who have reached the end of therapy, or therapists/teachers ready to admit that they’ve reached the end of exploring their one-therapist/teacher-personality, masters who see the end of growth (and fun) on their playground, the end of playing with groupies and followers in the ashram, and dare to be satisfied, and vice versa... disciples who acknowledge that in order to grow-up they have to pass the guru on the road, and dare to satisfy ‘the self’ with IT and in IT (spirit); people after a deep rest, after de-pressing, and longing to express, maybe even impress other participants with their perception of life after their courage to let life fall apart, out of mind, out of body, and back in, cleansed, and wholesome; people who once bought the snake-oil, got fooled by emotion-blockers; fear-by-passers; numb-ers, SS-codes of conduct (Safety and Security) to be seen as nice, kind, social, and normal; people who stopped with health-freaking the body with supplements, exercises, mind boggling techniques etc..
Let me spell it out for you, allow me to mention many traps: the pension-trap, school-trap, job-trap, business-trap, marriage-trap, kids-trap, money-trap, tax-trap, gender-trap, sex-trap, age-trap, pain-trap, guilt-trap, despair-trap, spiritual-trap, oneness-trap, meditation-trap, shadow-trap, drugs-trap, control-trap, health-trap, fitness-trap, wellness-trap, retreat-trap, mindfulness-trap, happy-trap, emotion-trap, anxiety-trap, love-and-light-trap, religious-trap, hierarchy-trap, celebrity-trap, poverty-trap, nature-trap, the-world-trap, beauty-trap, disability-trap, dis-ease-trap, science-trap, news-trap, awakening-trap, enlightenment-trap, groupie-trap, solitary-trap, one-personality-trap, position-trap, mouse-trap, trap... trap... trap… the word trap in Dutch means ‘ladder’, and ‘kick’ ☺
So, Hear Me Speak a bit ‘Double-Dutch
A trap can go upwards and downwards
We can get a kick out of being trapped
Freedom starts when I feel the trap, admit I’m trapped, stop repeating what I always did, my behaviours in the trap, because repetition is only useful in particular endeavours, for instance learning a new skill, not for digging deeper to get trapped better, unless of course I want to get really rock-bottom, which is an enlightening journey into the rabbit hole if I dare to feel (the whole). A trap can be used as a stairway towards the head and get stuck, which started as a strategy to rationalize, set the mind, be full of mind, to bypass feelings, fears and emotions. I can also climb out of the trap, or kick it and move on.
“Now that my ladder is gone
I must lie down where all the ladders start
In the foul rag and bone shop of the heart.”
W.B. Yeats 1865-1939 “The Circus Animals’ Desertion” (1939)
A trap can be used as a stairway downwards to the cellar. Fall in the Trap, Feel the Hole It’s at the Other End of our Black Hole We were Born out of where we see the Whole In ‘the Me’ in You and I, ‘the We’ in Us and Them So, Go through the vortex where the light comes to greet ‘the me’ like it does down the rabbit hole of despair the only way is up at rock-bottom Find the seed of freedom in the pit of pain Plant IT in Fertile Soil, like I’m doing right now Here and there
Okeko is for people who identify with a one-personality-label and long to re-balance energies with the ‘poles on the other side’ and flow like electricity, positive, negative, aware of the neutral ground, intending to heal, which is easier if we dive in the differences (for instance pos/neg), because the deeper we dive, the wiser we become, the more sameness we find, the more willing to unlearn the schooling that happened in childhood, and if we dive in, in conversations, and learn to feel more, sensitize to receive energy-in-formation, we train ourselves to practice the same healing dynamics on our own, with the personalities, characters, types, archetypes and so on, that come to the front in me and ‘the me’ in you.
The re-balance happens when we look in the mirror (face each other, look through the Soul’s window) and converse, revert the inversion of energy, relate (like I mentioned before) and let the healing happen, and this needs to happen without authorities, because we cannot be placed in a hierarchical position and then expect to dive in deep, together, because the consequences of “psychological bifurcation in a clan-culture” (part 2 of my essay “That’s It About Me and Okeko”, which is coming soon) are in the way to dive deep and hit rock-bottom, so to speak, i.e. dive in deep, in the details of differences where it’s inevitable to be exposed to the wisdom of sameness.
Let’s Play A Bit With Character
Okeko can be a play-ground for people who identify with the one-personality label ‘intellectual’ and longing to re-balance energies with ‘a pole on the other side’ for instance people who identify with the label ‘emotional’, and vice versa, or the ‘sensitive’ longing to re-balance with the ‘materialists’, or the ‘touchy with a sniffer, speaker, seer, listener’ or the ‘celibate with the heretic’, or re-balance ‘Airy Fairy’ with ‘Kermit the Kicker’, or the ‘hermit, observer, hermetic solitary, poor poet, author tramp’, with the ‘celebrity, notable or aristo-crazy’ and vice versa, or invite the ‘noble squatter, humble arrogant, ordinary weirdo, wounded healer or wise idiot’ to re-balance energies we all seem to need to dive into, and so on… to be able to stop identifying with labels all together, to-get-there, and dance on the play-ground of life (body) in a playful neutrality where we might discover that opposites are undivided, and “when everyone is special, no-one is” (a quote from ‘a convict’s perspective’ on Substack) so that we can say goodbye to the ‘one-ness fairy’ who whispers in many ears “we are all one”, while the universe is dancing between all-ness and zero-ness and finding middle-ground in is-ness (esse), LOL, IT IS… and that’s why ‘there’ is a hilarious (Cosmic and comic) side when I fall flat on my face when I see everything and therefore nothing through this one-dimensional lens and go along with my Mum/Dad’s training to keep playing on one plane only. Some Body doesn’t need/want to become Some One.
Or laugh at myself for travelling ‘out there’ without appreciating my ‘inner’ landscape and architecture, or over-think the structure of writing without appreciation of the structure ‘in me’ that ‘I’ can allow flowering on a screen ;)
It’s ‘just me’ where I allow spirit’s healing and the rise of consciousness.
I get up, shake off the mud, clean up my face and smile.
Oh, how I love to see you smile in me too!
Let’s Wrap IT Up… Again
Let’s Dance to the End of Fun
in Okeko’s Arena, Circus, Theatre, Carnival Gathering
Soul It Child / Child Spirit the Soul / Spirit It Soul Child
Be IT, Become IT, Own the Self, It’s Healthy to be Selfish in ‘the Me’, the sameness, identical Self (‘Self’ also means ‘same’ and ‘identical’) i.e. the flow and power of infinite consciousness where healing takes place.
When You say Me You mean exactly the same as when I say Me
Okeko is also for people who find themselves stuck in their mansions on the ‘outside’ and in order to grow-up they have to admit that their ‘inner mansion’ feels like an empty shell in a crumbling shanty town, people who feel alone in crowds, or hide themselves because the teacher in ‘their me’ is under so much pressure that they fear to hurt others when they let some air out their ‘pressure-cooker’, and gradually learn to tell their story of what they went through, decompress and express, it’s about allowing the feeling that there is a bill (bile) with others that needs to compensate the wrong that was done TO them, but who are also open to learn about Universal laws, spirits who don’t let them of the hook, and see that whatever happened also happened FOR them, a new opportunity to grow-up, feel what could not be felt before, it’s for people who want to learn & share about “what we won’t feel, can’t heal, can’t manifest”, the connection between healing and creating an art to live-on, dancing and singing to the tunes of life (body), finding middle-ground in our spirited body-world, gradually allowing the relief of ideas about ‘the world’ and seeing the immediate effect of our healing processes, by allowing healing in our Cosmic Egg, informed bio-energy sphere, informed field, aura, ‘the me’, where the Soul repairs Ego (inflates, deflates, melts our coagulation, repairs the holes, and changes the valves and fuses), and then, we’re going to see the ‘automagical’ passing-on of healing to all bodies around, we see our free play-ground with so many brilliant options, new skills, tools and toys like the choices we wanted to have as children, also to learn to properly relate, engage, respond, converse, convert, revert and/or walk away, and leave ‘them’ to spirit if ‘they’ want to stay ‘there’, stuck, and suffer a bit more.
Okeko is for people who like to converse themselves (revert the inversion of flow of energy in their Cosmic Egg) in conversations with fellow ‘psychonauts’ a term that Visa has used in his “tavern & temple” newsletter to feel their place in the whole to belong, truly integer (be in integrity) with the least amount of effort (we don’t need a van or refuel at a gas station to participate in Okeko) in the shortest time possible (2 hours) in a small ever-changing community (max. 9 participants) meeting strangers as if on a holiday, intending to heal and raise consciousness, with courage to relate (slow down, tell, recount, leave) and bond without entanglement, knowing that when people gather healing takes place, without getting stuck in the same patterns of ‘inner circles’ with friends, family and partners, but spiralling in the creativity, intelligence and bravery of leaving the ‘clan-culture’, and the inevitable hierarchy, our position and situation, thus identification with a one-personality disorder, to understand our bodies and its architecture, stand under our body, stand-up for the body, get inspired by the body and dare to play, feel the body, it’s the middle-ground between physical and spiritual realms, to belong in our spirited body-world and tell what’s true in (the) ME.
Learn & Share IT
Learn to Share, Share to Learn
He he… breathe in and let go
I feel I’ve just laid an egg :)
I also feel I laid IT out for You
Do as You Please with and in IT
I Love to Meet ‘the Me’ in You
and If You Help Me Grow Okeko
I/Me/It Helps ‘the Me’ in You Grow Too
‘There’ is an inner landscape and architecture
to explore and experience (both wild, domesticated and all the in-betweens)
IT (spirit) is ‘In Here’ and ‘Out There’
Let’s get ‘there’ from ‘here’; together... to-get-there
Then, let’s find the middle-ground between here and there
and play, sing, tell, recount, relate, respond
learn & share, heal, rise, grow and wise-up
in the spirited songs of life (body),
and leaveSo… who’s boss?
Is it the mouse or the cat? Or the dog or the cat? Or the master or the dog? Who plays with whom? Is it the child or the Mum? Or the child or the Dad? Is it Spirit or the body? Or is it the body or the personality, the mind with its perceived identity?
It’s just an idea that it depends on the level of healing and consciousness of the teacher of life who dwells in the body to become ourselves, to claim the self, the sameness of spirited self, ‘the me’ in Body/Soul expressed through identities in synchronosophy* with people around.
Then the answer could be:
it’s ‘and/or’
The cat and/or the mouse, are both boss when they play with each other, excited to participate in a novel play, and experience, and thus becoming better in the art to live-on and in serving the mastery and synchronosophy* of body/mind/ego/soul/spirit. That said, if the mouse is unaware of its power to boss the cat with its play, claim itself, be itself, it creates an opportunity for the cat to play with the blind-spot in the ill-informed bio-energy sphere, as it is identified with total and permanent mousiness.
I probably watched too many Tom & Jerry Cartoons in childhood ;)
It’s not helpful if the mouse complains about the cat, or wants to solve the quest with the cat, because the cat is ‘just’ playing, but it’s very helpful if the mouse uses its talent for scrutiny to inquire and find (feel) the blind-spot in itself, like it does when it finds corn-seed among tiny stones, including having its emotions and fears, so that spirit can touch the blind-spot and inspires Soul/Ego to repair its sphere. In the event that the cat appears and wants to play, it’s likely that it’s gonna be hilarious again, and fun for all.
Just like it is for you and I, them and us in our inspired body-world.
The Mouse can also leave, and find a new Cat, like I… found You and You found Me. So… let’s play! I bet you love it too.
We’ll find the pie in Sophie ☺ that’s the treat.
That’s IT
Bye For Now
Love
Pascalle
PS This essay is probably too long As IT is To Me Life, Like it is, takes a long time for i to belong Therefore, I just let IT flow in the landscape and architecture of Self in the landscape and architecture of my Body where I don’t need to worry about structure or time or effort or length Life is as it is IT just flows in the landscape and architecture of Universal Consciousness, boundless, I’m bountiful boon-docking and free-flowing to flower. I Get It I have to Go But It is a Whole Lot Of Fun In the Rabbit Hole Share Some Love… will You? Hit that Green and Red Button Subscribe and Click that Heart It Lights Me Up *PPS I learned a new word from Veronika! ***Synchronosophy***… wow! Go to her Substack Too! I can’t wait to dive in what she’s saying ☺ and hear more songs of Life.
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